Memoirs Of Serene
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Our Youth.
I wanna catch them so they can sleep at night instead of wandering between pain and happiness.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
My Crossroad To Happiness
As a kid,
I always witnessed more than I was suppose to witness.
I always heard more than I was suppose to hear.
I always saw more than I was suppose to see.
I always got more love than I was suppose to get.
But most of all, I've been through things that no little girl was ever suppose to go through.
Never could sleep, to worried about the pain tomorrow would bring.
Now that I'm grown, all that's left are painful memories & nightmares.
This has made the girl you see before you today.
They told me I was Remarkable.
Brilliant, Exquisite, Strong, Wise, Selfless, Incredible, Amazing,
Eloquent, Mature Beyond My Years, Kind, Warm, Funny, Exciting,
Real, Powerful, Lyrically Gifted, Striking, Generous, Appealing,
Stunning, Lovely, Heart Of The Sea but most of all Beautiful.
I didn't hear it before, but now I'm listening.
I couldn't see it before, but now I'm living it.
Today I took the hand of the little girl I used to be.
And I told her "You are beautiful, Talented and Exquisite."
I said "I'm sorry to hear, I'm sorry for what they did to you,
I'm sorry for the pain you endured at such a young age.
But most of all, I'm sorry for cheating you of the true happiness and love you deserve"
I'm here now, everything will be okay.
I always witnessed more than I was suppose to witness.
I always heard more than I was suppose to hear.
I always saw more than I was suppose to see.
I always got more love than I was suppose to get.
But most of all, I've been through things that no little girl was ever suppose to go through.
Never could sleep, to worried about the pain tomorrow would bring.
Now that I'm grown, all that's left are painful memories & nightmares.
This has made the girl you see before you today.
They told me I was Remarkable.
Brilliant, Exquisite, Strong, Wise, Selfless, Incredible, Amazing,
Eloquent, Mature Beyond My Years, Kind, Warm, Funny, Exciting,
Real, Powerful, Lyrically Gifted, Striking, Generous, Appealing,
Stunning, Lovely, Heart Of The Sea but most of all Beautiful.
I didn't hear it before, but now I'm listening.
I couldn't see it before, but now I'm living it.
Today I took the hand of the little girl I used to be.
And I told her "You are beautiful, Talented and Exquisite."
I said "I'm sorry to hear, I'm sorry for what they did to you,
I'm sorry for the pain you endured at such a young age.
But most of all, I'm sorry for cheating you of the true happiness and love you deserve"
I'm here now, everything will be okay.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Question Is
Now Playing: You Must Be - Gina Rene
You must be a glance of heaven.
Your soul shows through your words,
Your smile reflects your heart.
Your laugh is the sound of beautiful.
Your love drifts through my body like the sweetest kind of oxygen.
Your like fresh air for the birth of my new eyes.
You understand the gift of this girl.
You make me feel so alive inside.
All this life I've been looking for someone like you,
Now all of a sudden my dreams are coming true.
Question is, Are you real?
You must be a glance of heaven.
Your soul shows through your words,
Your smile reflects your heart.
Your laugh is the sound of beautiful.
Your love drifts through my body like the sweetest kind of oxygen.
Your like fresh air for the birth of my new eyes.
You understand the gift of this girl.
You make me feel so alive inside.
All this life I've been looking for someone like you,
Now all of a sudden my dreams are coming true.
Question is, Are you real?
Pat's Justice = The Beautiful Truth
They say the 60s was crazy
but the 80s were worse
Crack fucked blacks and gave birth to a curse
The moon's bright the sky's misty
Know my future cause I know my history
My life predicted by a gypsy
Murder she wrote at the end of the story the streets get me
That's what I live quickly and always keep a pistol with me
Ghetto Prisoner
Won't stop fighting until I'm free
Raised in the city of fallen angels where niggas ain't scared to bleed
If money is the root to all evil then greed's the seed
This ain't living, we taking because ain't nobody giving
America's a rich man's vision but a poor man's prison
So don't expect these politicians to give us a pot to piss in
Preacher man stop preaching because niggas ain't fixin to listen
Folks done lost hope and stopped trying
Life's a bitch from the start that's why you come out your mama crying
The world's dying, and the people have gone mad
I take a shit on the White House and wipe my ass with the flag
When will the evil end?
Too many browns and blacks in the system, victims of legal sins
In court praying for mercy when condemned by evil men
Ain't no love in the heart of the city
If there's a God where is he?
My homies dying over 100s and 50s
I sit back, sip yak and analyze the situation
Ain't a person alive that today knowing the monster we're facing
They crucified Jesus Christ, sold Marcus garvey for Rice
Shot Malcom-X in the chest, gave Nelson Mandella life
pac died at 25, Biggie died a year younger
all my life been broke i'm motivated by my hunger
Told my mama bury me with a 357, just in case God's trippin and I don't get into heaven
If he send me to Hell, then oh well, cause I just did 19 years in the ghetto as a black male
And it can't get much harder than that, I had a lot of pain in my heart, that's why I started to rap
See them other brothas will make you dance but jusice and make you think
You saving up for a Bentley I'm saving up for a tank
That's just the mindset of a soldier
Shit is crazy huh, but this is what I see
We are no longer slaves, but we sho ain't free
So until I don't have to steal and kill from my own folks
tatood across my soul are the words I just spoke
Who the fuck ya'll gone call when I break all the laws on behalf of every innocent criminal
but the 80s were worse
Crack fucked blacks and gave birth to a curse
The moon's bright the sky's misty
Know my future cause I know my history
My life predicted by a gypsy
Murder she wrote at the end of the story the streets get me
That's what I live quickly and always keep a pistol with me
Ghetto Prisoner
Won't stop fighting until I'm free
Raised in the city of fallen angels where niggas ain't scared to bleed
If money is the root to all evil then greed's the seed
This ain't living, we taking because ain't nobody giving
America's a rich man's vision but a poor man's prison
So don't expect these politicians to give us a pot to piss in
Preacher man stop preaching because niggas ain't fixin to listen
Folks done lost hope and stopped trying
Life's a bitch from the start that's why you come out your mama crying
The world's dying, and the people have gone mad
I take a shit on the White House and wipe my ass with the flag
When will the evil end?
Too many browns and blacks in the system, victims of legal sins
In court praying for mercy when condemned by evil men
Ain't no love in the heart of the city
If there's a God where is he?
My homies dying over 100s and 50s
I sit back, sip yak and analyze the situation
Ain't a person alive that today knowing the monster we're facing
They crucified Jesus Christ, sold Marcus garvey for Rice
Shot Malcom-X in the chest, gave Nelson Mandella life
pac died at 25, Biggie died a year younger
all my life been broke i'm motivated by my hunger
Told my mama bury me with a 357, just in case God's trippin and I don't get into heaven
If he send me to Hell, then oh well, cause I just did 19 years in the ghetto as a black male
And it can't get much harder than that, I had a lot of pain in my heart, that's why I started to rap
See them other brothas will make you dance but jusice and make you think
You saving up for a Bentley I'm saving up for a tank
That's just the mindset of a soldier
Shit is crazy huh, but this is what I see
We are no longer slaves, but we sho ain't free
So until I don't have to steal and kill from my own folks
tatood across my soul are the words I just spoke
Who the fuck ya'll gone call when I break all the laws on behalf of every innocent criminal
Drift Into Heaven
Sitting while the wind blows through my hair.
I take a look up at the sky whiles listening to some Anita Baker.
I say to myself "Wow, I live in such a beautiful place" ...
Then I simply drift into heaven.
I take a look up at the sky whiles listening to some Anita Baker.
I say to myself "Wow, I live in such a beautiful place" ...
Then I simply drift into heaven.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
'Jada' - Tupac Shakur
u r the omega of my heart
the foundation of my conception of love
when i think of what a black woman should be
its u that i first think of
u will never fully understand
how deeply my heart feels 4 u
i worry that we'll grow apart
and i'll end up losing u
u bring me 2 climax without sex
and u do it all with regal grace
u r my heart in human form
a friend i could never replace
the foundation of my conception of love
when i think of what a black woman should be
its u that i first think of
u will never fully understand
how deeply my heart feels 4 u
i worry that we'll grow apart
and i'll end up losing u
u bring me 2 climax without sex
and u do it all with regal grace
u r my heart in human form
a friend i could never replace
Written by: Tupac Shakur
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Reggae-ton!
No matter the time of day, or where I am. When that music comes on, my hips are moving to the beat of the drum. I feel it in my veins, I touch it with my soul and we just move. Smile appears on my face and suddenly life is such a beautiful place to be. Music is such a beautiful thing, without it I don't know what I'd be right now. Thank goodness we have Reggae-ton, it's truly an Art.
I absolutely adore it.
Me encanta mi reggae-ton!
Why Is That?
I don't really understand what's going on with me right about now. I'm getting all this love from many different people and I feel as if it's not deserved. Apart of me is aware that I'm getting all this love, but the other half just doesn't feel anything at all. No love, no appreciation, no respect, no nothing.
Why is that?
Save Me
Sitting upside down on my bed,
Looking up at the clouds in the sky.
All the blood in my body is rushing to my brain.
This world feels like quick sand,
Once your in it, you just keep going down.
People tell you there going to be there through it all.
Then how come nobody is here to pull me out?
I just keep going down.
So I look to the clouds for help.
They come and rescue me, they pull me out.
Save me.
Looking up at the clouds in the sky.
All the blood in my body is rushing to my brain.
This world feels like quick sand,
Once your in it, you just keep going down.
People tell you there going to be there through it all.
Then how come nobody is here to pull me out?
I just keep going down.
So I look to the clouds for help.
They come and rescue me, they pull me out.
Save me.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Beauty
Beauty comes from the skin underneath.
Beauty ain't just bout pretty face and curvy shapes,
Without respect , manners and grace .. where's the beauty ?
Beauty is about portraying the creation of god.
Beauty is about giving and receiving.
Beauty is about rising , when you calapse.
Beauty is about holding your head above and never looking beneath.
Beauty is about having respect and being grateful in life.
Beauty is about carrying your self properly and having manners.
A woman of class.
Beauty is an expression of your heart.
Beauty ain't just bout pretty face and curvy shapes,
Without respect , manners and grace .. where's the beauty ?
Beauty is about portraying the creation of god.
Beauty is about giving and receiving.
Beauty is about rising , when you calapse.
Beauty is about holding your head above and never looking beneath.
Beauty is about having respect and being grateful in life.
Beauty is about carrying your self properly and having manners.
A woman of class.
Beauty is an expression of your heart.
An Unsolved Question
Where did all this, anxiety, anger and tears come from, all this depression?
I’ve never been able to find the answer to this question or even how it became a question.
Maybe I need to ask myself another 100 times before I even start to
Realize where I need to look for the right answer.
Was I doing something wrong, or was I just doing too many things right.
The problem is I could never understand how people could be so judgmental.
I don't think we we're put on this earth to judge people, I think we we're meant
To judge ourselves in the way we speak, act and do. Not in others.
What's funny to me is, you couldn't walk 1 m in my shoes let alone live
my life for 2 seconds, yet you people can sit there and look at me like
I’m some Miss. Perfect. When I make one mistake, it's like I've somehow
made 10 more at the same time.
How did it become so hard to live life, when everything used to be so easy?
Was it the doubt in my mind, the hurt in my heart or my pass catching up with me?
How do you find an answer to a question you don't even understand?
Maybe I just need to rewind to the days where I was just that girl, who
used to always be smiling and laughing about everything. Maybe I need to
put my best foot back and just sit and analyze everything.
I feel like an unsolved question, when all I want to be is the answer.
Stop & Stare
STOP AND STARE
I think I'm moving but I go no where.
Somehow I feel like I'm moving, but I'm standing still as the earth.
It's like the world is moving around me,
As I stand, softly and still.
I want to grasp it and move with it,
BUT
For some reason, I can't, I don't, I won't.
Maybe I should move,
Maybe I shouldn't?
I want too,
Then again I don't.
I think I'm moving but I go no where.
Somehow I feel like I'm moving, but I'm standing still as the earth.
It's like the world is moving around me,
As I stand, softly and still.
I want to grasp it and move with it,
BUT
For some reason, I can't, I don't, I won't.
Maybe I should move,
Maybe I shouldn't?
I want too,
Then again I don't.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Again?
I'm feeling kind of lost these days.
I can't really re-call where my minds at,
It's running with the beautiful white horses.
Every day is another question,
With nothing but no answer again.
Outside looking in,
You think I have perfection.
You claim that I have all this love and support.
Then tell me, why is it I don't feel it in my bones?
I'm not ungrateful or selfish.
And I'm definitely not looking for attention.
So does the answer come from me? Or you.
I can't really re-call where my minds at,
It's running with the beautiful white horses.
Every day is another question,
With nothing but no answer again.
Outside looking in,
You think I have perfection.
You claim that I have all this love and support.
Then tell me, why is it I don't feel it in my bones?
I'm not ungrateful or selfish.
And I'm definitely not looking for attention.
So does the answer come from me? Or you.
Dreams
I want to get there,
I want to reach my dreams.
I want to fulfill them,
I will not give up, until I do.
I want to be successful,
I want to be beautiful in what I shall do.
I want to be happy doing it too.
And I won't give up, until I get all of that.
LA I'm a see you in 2 years.
The Grammy's get ready for another Best Actress award!
You best believe, I'm coming for the world.
I want to reach my dreams.
I want to fulfill them,
I will not give up, until I do.
I want to be successful,
I want to be beautiful in what I shall do.
I want to be happy doing it too.
And I won't give up, until I get all of that.
LA I'm a see you in 2 years.
The Grammy's get ready for another Best Actress award!
You best believe, I'm coming for the world.
A Better Day
The pain keeps coming, it flows like water.
Tears turn into flames, and smiles turn into dust.
As reality becomes a dream, my dreams seem further away.
Things I understood, became things I did not know.
Things I once knew, became wonders to me.
Things I once saw, now are blind to me.
My free spirit has become limited by my pain,
Through my hard shift, scars have appeared.
My doubts have finally become the truth.
The thought of brighter days seem so far away,
I look up into the sky,
fighting, wanting to see sunshine.
Instead dark clouds surround me.
The positive become negative.
As the negatives become positives.
If I didn't have God, I would be lost.
Though I have no faith left,
some how there's something still fighting inside of me.
So even though I have nothing left,
I still remain standing.
Not because I can but because my faith in God is strong.
So strong, I can wake up everyday; hoping and praying for a better day.
Tears turn into flames, and smiles turn into dust.
As reality becomes a dream, my dreams seem further away.
Things I understood, became things I did not know.
Things I once knew, became wonders to me.
Things I once saw, now are blind to me.
My free spirit has become limited by my pain,
Through my hard shift, scars have appeared.
My doubts have finally become the truth.
The thought of brighter days seem so far away,
I look up into the sky,
fighting, wanting to see sunshine.
Instead dark clouds surround me.
The positive become negative.
As the negatives become positives.
If I didn't have God, I would be lost.
Though I have no faith left,
some how there's something still fighting inside of me.
So even though I have nothing left,
I still remain standing.
Not because I can but because my faith in God is strong.
So strong, I can wake up everyday; hoping and praying for a better day.
We Gazed Up At The Sky
Soccer game finished, Victory was earned.
Rain fell from the sky, Clouds started laughing.
We started running towards the field,
While others were running into their cars.
We ran, fell into the mud and just had fun.
Laughed, smiled, we were all so happy; Together.
We gazed up at the sky,
Rain falling onto our faces.
We just smiled with the raindrops,
And sent love to all our fallen angels.
How we miss you.
Those are the best memories for your life.
The ones where your smiling and sharing one's happiness.
Those are the moments that take our breathe away.
Rain fell from the sky, Clouds started laughing.
We started running towards the field,
While others were running into their cars.
We ran, fell into the mud and just had fun.
Laughed, smiled, we were all so happy; Together.
We gazed up at the sky,
Rain falling onto our faces.
We just smiled with the raindrops,
And sent love to all our fallen angels.
How we miss you.
Those are the best memories for your life.
The ones where your smiling and sharing one's happiness.
Those are the moments that take our breathe away.
Prisoner Of Emotions & Feelings
This life.
This life isn’t what it’s supposed to be.
You are not who you say you are,
You are not the same person I once knew.
This place is different then I had pictured,
I’m not sure what I see when I’m looking around.
Through my eyes it’s nothing more to me than a prison,
From which emotions and feelings are locked up.
I can’t escape, there’s no way out.
But then you say, just come with me everything will be okay.
I trusted you, you lied.
My own blood hurt me deeper than any other stranger could.
Now my soul has gone and committed suicide.
I want nothing more than to follow it into the eternal darkness.
The light just makes my eyes burn until I cry.
I can’t play this “help me” game anymore, I’m afraid of the pain.
For I’ve stayed here in constant pain. Those that truly care have been
killing themselves to help you, but you do not know enough to see what’s really on the inside.
On the inside is a creature to terrifying for even a horror movie,
those that can see it shield their eyes and run in constant fear for you.
Some can feel it trying to fight it’s way out, but they have also given up.
We are all in this prison, where emotions and feelings are locked up.
Though we can’t feel; apart of us still can’t let you go.
When you care about someone, you can never let them go.
Life isn’t the same without you, without my big brother.
Come back to us and release me, release all us from this prison.
This Is Who I Am
They fear to embrace me.
I'm judged, based on their lies.
Then the judgments lead,
To my personality being misunderstood.
This is who I am.
Ever since I was 10 years old,
Nothing but knowledge arises from my words.
My words are my words.
They're who I am, and there's no helping that.
So accept it, and live with it.
Or just move forward without me.
Jealous Insecurity
Jealousy was created from the word insecurity.
If we all were to love ourselves unconditionally first,
There would be no use of writing this note.
See we are one person, in this big beautiful world.
All of us are different, but we share one heart, one world.
We point out the things we want, instead of the things we have.
We are never satisfied with what we have, we always want more.
We don't all look a like, but there are similarities here & there.
But as different as we may be, we still live under one sky.
God created us, each a perfect soul.
Every scar, dot, bump is where it's suppose to be.
Your face, arms, thighs, legs are how it's meant to be.
We are all perfect souls wanting to be unperfected.
So don't judge yourself, accept yourself.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I Smiled Back
I had a dream last night,
There was a little girl and that little girl was me.
I took her hand and I held it.
And I said I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for letting them hurt you.
I’m sorry for letting them break your broken heart.
I’m sorry for people always leaving.
I’m sorry I didn’t take care of you.
I’m sorry I didn’t love you.
And I’m sorry for cheating you of the happiness and joy you’ve always deserved.
Then the little girl looked back at me,
And she said “it’s okay – I forgive you”
And then she smiled.
Then I woke up and I smiled back.
Love Bug
You can call me love bug,
it's not my name but it was
the name of the first novel
I fell in love with.
I can't really re-call what the
story was about, but I remember
it made me laugh.
When I was a little girl,
every afternoon me and my grandpa
would meet on the front counter
and he would read a book with me.
I think that's how I developed my
love for reading and books.
Love bug isn't my name,
but for today, you can call me it.
I'm Losing My Mind
I’m losing my mind.
Crying is like rain, never stopping until its taimed.
Will I ever stop drowning in pain?
Pain is forever flowing, as if it’s flowing through my veins.
I’m running from pain so deep, I’m spinning and going out of control.
I'm losing my mind
I'm running from this beast that chases me in my dreams, it hides within me.
What it wants is just to come out.
Seek revenge on those who feel they can step on me.
"Help me lord" ... I scream to the lord.
Give me rest, strengthen me, and give me faith to fight back each day.
My mind is gone and I want to crush the ones that held me back until this day.
But "forgive them" the lord says; for I am your father and creator.
Forgiving is hard, but I will try for I am a child of God.
I'm losing my mind.
All I Did Was Feel Pain
For the past 3 months I've been feeling like I'm some terrible person.
He made me feel like I've done something so wrong, that I didn't deserve his love anymore.
He was wrong, because I haven't done anything wrong.
All I did was feel pain.
Each one of our lives is different, some are great and others are filled
with pain, hurt and terrible memories. Memories which people don't
always let out, until one day that pain starts
to appear in their smile, their laugh and the look in their eyes.
All I did was feel pain.
I am an amazing person, and a beautiful soul. I've been so hard on
myself for the past months but I can't let it affect my smile anymore
because it wasn't my fault. I haven't done anything wrong, at all.
So I won't apologize for anything, to anyone. Because I haven't done anything wrong.
I'm only human after all, and man oh man I deserve to be happy.
All I did was feel pain.
Before I was lost and confused and couldn't really grasp my hands around
what had taken place. All along not realizing, I was holding onto
something I've never known.
A Diamond Waiting To Sparkle
A lot of people look at me, and judge me. They say I've changed.
I haven't changed; my desire to succeed in life has just grown.
I think it's a simple explanation of "growing up" ...
I had to grow up at a very young age, so I always had a lot of knowledge
packed in the back of my mind. I guess I was just too afraid to use it.
I was scared of standing out in a crowd, being the odd one out. Simply different.
Everyone around me was so immature and stupid. They used to do and say
the most foolish things, but for some reason in their mind that was
known as "real" ...
Real and fake doesn't really mean anything; I'd rather just say you and me.
Before I was dead, now I'm alive.
Not because it's all in my mind state, because I can now smile being who I am.
We're all going to have to grow up sometime, I say better now than later.
I look around at girls my age and I see everything I don't want to become.
Yes I'd love to be in love, who doesn't love to be in love.
But none of these dudes are meant for me, they're all a bunch of nobodies.
Guys these days have forgotten the definition of a real woman.
There's something I just got to say ... "this generation is truly fucked"
Girls saying goodbye to their self-respect and dignity every morning
before they walk out their front door? What has the world truly come to?
I'll never know.
So where do I stand in all of this mess? I think I'll stay on my little cloud of Me.
It's the best place to be, the only place safe to me.
My journey has just begun, a diamond just waiting to sparkle.
Open Your Eyes, Or You'll Never See
It's a big world we live in, and it's so easy to get lost inside of it.
And I want to see all of it.
I want to walk on every street, swim in every sea, ocean and lake.
I want to cry when it rains in every city, I want to shop at every mall.
I want to see the world for what it is; it's time to start living.
It's crazy we only have one life to live, that's it.
No second chances and time is passing us by faster than we know.
If you don't open your eyes now, you'll never see.
The world clock never stops ticking, just like we never stop breathing.
Until it's the end.
We all know what we want in life, were just to scared to get up and do it.
My advice to you is, get up and live your lives and honestly listen to when people say
live every day like it's your last because you never know when your soul will diminish.
London, Paris, Greece, Barcelona, Spain, all the places I want to go and more!
I will make it there one way or another and to be honest, I can't flippin' wait :)
Hadeel M.
" Being Beautiful isn't all about looks but being different and unique is Beautiful. please stop judging to those who you think are not Beautiful or pretty because you're aren't any better if it's only looks and curves that you care about."
- Hadeel M.
Hello, Good-bye
I know it won't be easy, and I know it won't be hard either.
I may have to walk alone, but I will get to the end of this road.
Stronger than ever; I will rise above.
No looking back, my past will be a closed chapter from now on.
It's time to create a new chapter; it's time to put my past behind me.
I'm looking forward, soaring higher than the stars above,
I will show them, I will make it through. They can't stop me.
Give me the opportunity to fail and I will show you what success is.
Goodbye to the things behind me, Hello to the things to come.
Content Of My Heart
I'm not beautiful because of my face, or the colour of my skin or because of the clothes I wear. I'm beautiful because my soul is pure, I'm beautiful because of the content of my heart.
Sincerely Beautiful
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and
day to make you everybody else? It means to fight the hardest battle,
which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.
The world hates to see different, they hate people who can be themselves and live freely.
It's the most intimidating thing yet.
In society today, you got to fight for you because nobody else will.
Once you hold the key to imagination don't ever throw it away.
Just because you walk on the street and stand out from everybody else;
doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you, it simply means you're
you.
It's the hardest battle, but you got to fight it and never stop fighting it.
Don't let the world suck you into their little trap, day and night the
world is trying to make you like them, but you’'re not and always
remember one thing.
We live under one sky, we share one heart, but we all hold our own souls.
It's what makes us different, so hold onto that and never forget we
we're born to make our marks on this earth. Each different, unique and
sincerely beautiful.
Why stand in line with everyone else? When you we're born to stand out.
Whatever you do, don't let your fire go out, because that spark is irreplaceable.
Even Angels Learn To Fly
You lost my respect the day you walked out the door.
Truth be told, I thought that was the end of me,
I thought love was something I'd never see again.
Then one day my eyes opened for the first time,
and I remembered I was destined for greatness.
Since you've been gone, I've learned how to move on.
I've learned how to be myself, I've learned how to love myself,
and I've realized that I don't need nobody else.
I'm doing fine all by myself, I'm doing so good I forgot I could live like this.
I forgot the beauty of my happiness and the strength in my smile.
It's all in the process but I won't rush it.
I enjoy taking it day by day, one step at a time.
Everyday I'm stronger, you can't accomplish anything if it don't hurt.
I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all,
'cause then I know I'm at least making progress.
You took my smile once, you'll never take it again.
It's mine, forever mine.
It's easy to hit the ground and just give up.
But I'm fighting for my life, defending me for the first time in my life and it feels good.
The heart breaks, but I'll learn to love again.
Stronger, deeper, wiser and more free.
The next man that gets me, will deserve me.
Like Fantasia once said, even angels learn to fly.
Philippians 4: 13
The strength to resist the night
The strength to endure the day
The strength to keep righteous paths in sight
The strength to take them without delay
The strength to find a purpose in life
The strength to find the truths it brings
The strength to kick away from strife
The strength to stabalize the rock it clings
The strength to light a friend’s day up
The strength to resist wrathful foes
The strength to fill a stranger’s dry cup
The strength to shun sin when it opposed
The strength to feel a injured man’s pain
The strength to hold a reject’s hand
The strength to act against any gain
The strength to love without demand
The strength to understand that our King
Has blessed us with more than we can contain
Therefore regardless what time may bring
The strength will continue to reign
Baby Naomi
Tiny hands that hold a lifetime,
Connect your heart to mine
Tiny fingers trace the lifelines,
Of two souls that intertwined
Tiny nose and tiny eyes,
On a tiny little face
Reminders of your beauty,
Quickly gone, without a trace
Tiny kicks and tiny wiggles
Stopped in the silence of just one breathe
As our tiny, beautiful angel Naomi
Was caressed and kissed by death
Tiny life stopped in one heartbeat,
You passed through all our lives, hearts and souls
You became a part of all our lives
Your tiny whispers and tiny words
Never to be heard
But your echoes live forever
In our hearts, in our souls
We can shed tears because she is gone
Or we can smile because she has lived.
We can close our eyes and pray that she'll come back
Or we can open our eyes and see all that she's left us
Our heart can be empty because we can't see her
Or we can be filled with the love Naomi brought us
We can remember her and only that she's gone
Or we can cherish her memory and let it live on, forever & always
We can try and close our mind, be empty and sad inside
Or we can do what Baby Naomi would want us to do,
Smile, laugh, open our eyes and live our lives to the fullest without
Regret and make sure everyday her mommy has a smile on her beautiful face.
So now it's time for her to spread her wings and fly up into the gates of heaven.
And as she does, I think all she needs is for us to let her go.
But let her leave not by seeing us with tears in our eyes
But simply rather a shinning smile on our faces.
So let us smile knowing that Baby Naomi is smiling down on us.
We all love you, Your Mommy loves you, and I love you
In loving memory of our precious and beautiful little angel – Naomi
Questions, Answers
Musicians/Bands You Love:
1. Anita Baker
2. Tupac
3. Kenny G
4. Lupe Fiasco
5. Bob Marley
+ MANY MORE!
Things You Do Everyday:
1. Write
2. Read
3. Cook
4. Blog
5. Clean
Things You Enjoy:
1. Writing Poetry
2. Philosophy
3. Cooking
4. Reading
5. Learning
Things That Will Always Win Your Heart:
1. Respect
2. Smiles
3. Poetry
4. Truth
5. Itilian Food
Current Favourites:
1. MOVIE: Benjamin Button
2. SONG: J.Cole ft Miguel - I Want You
3. BOOK: The Kite Runner
4. BAND: Kings Of Leons
5. SEASON: Fall
3 Places You Want To Go:
1. L.A
2. Spain
3. Africa
Top 2 Favourite Holidays You Love:
1. Christmas
2. Thanksgiving
Person You’d Marry On The Spot:
1. Rahiem Reyes-Santiago
And I Quote
"Fellas. Treating a woman as a sex object doesn't give you the credibility to label you as "cool". Grow up. Woman are a gift to earth.."
- Jaden A. Reynolds
Current
Current Musicians You Love:
1. Nas
2. Lupe Fiasco
3. Kid Kudi
4. Kings Of Leons
5. Jah Cure
+ MANY MORE!
Things You Do Everyday:
1. Write
2. Read
3. Cook
4. Blog
5. Clean
Things You Enjoy:
1. Writing Poetry
2. Philosophy
3. Cooking
4. Reading
5. Learning
Things That Will Always Win Your Heart:
1. Respect
2. Smiles
3. Poetry
4. Truth
5. Italian Food
Current Favourites:
1. MOVIE: Benjamin Button
2. SONG: J.Cole ft Miguel - I Want You
3. BOOK: The Kite Runner
4. BAND: Kings Of Leons
5. SEASON: Fall
3 Places You Want To Go:
1. L.A
2. Spain
3. Africa
Top 2 Favourite Holidays You Love:
1. Christmas
2. Thanksgiving
Person You’d Marry On The Spot:
1. Rahiem Reyes-Santiago
Getting To Know Me
Five things you will find if you open my bag:
1. Blistex
2. Iphone
3. A Novel
4. A pen/pencil
5. A Journal
Five things in my bedroom:
1. My Bed
2. Library
4. Teddy Bears
5. Cd Collection
Five things I have planned for the weekend:
1. Write Poetry
2. Clean Up House/Room
3. Job Search
4. Blogging
5. Call My Mommy
Five things that make me very happy:
1. Writing
3. My Family's Smiles
4. Music
5. Discovering Something New Within
Five things I’m currently into:
1. Writing Poetry
2. Spoken Word
3. Tigers & Elephants
4. Italian Food
5. All Black Everything
1. Blistex
2. Iphone
3. A Novel
4. A pen/pencil
5. A Journal
Five things in my bedroom:
1. My Bed
2. Library
4. Teddy Bears
5. Cd Collection
Five things I have planned for the weekend:
1. Write Poetry
2. Clean Up House/Room
3. Job Search
4. Blogging
5. Call My Mommy
Five things that make me very happy:
1. Writing
3. My Family's Smiles
4. Music
5. Discovering Something New Within
Five things I’m currently into:
1. Writing Poetry
2. Spoken Word
3. Tigers & Elephants
4. Italian Food
5. All Black Everything
Five things on my eternal to-do list:
1. Move To L.A
2. Have Skin Deep Confidence
3. Save Someone's Life Through My Words
4. Win A Grammy For Best Actress
5. Publish My Poems
Five things some people may not know about me:
1. Smiles intrigue Me
2. I Love Black & White Movies
3. My Grandparents Are The Backbone To My Strength
4. I'm Nocturnal
5. Every Morning @ 3 a.m, I Go Sit On My Front Porch And Stare At The Stars
1. Move To L.A
2. Have Skin Deep Confidence
3. Save Someone's Life Through My Words
4. Win A Grammy For Best Actress
5. Publish My Poems
Five things some people may not know about me:
1. Smiles intrigue Me
2. I Love Black & White Movies
3. My Grandparents Are The Backbone To My Strength
4. I'm Nocturnal
5. Every Morning @ 3 a.m, I Go Sit On My Front Porch And Stare At The Stars
If I Were?
If I were a month, I’d be June!
If I were a day of the week, I'd be Wednesday!
If I were a time of day, I’d be 3 pm
If I were a planet, I’d be The Moon!
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Tiger
If I were a direction, I’d be South
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Table
If I were a liquid, I’d be Mango Juice
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a Jade
If I were a tree, I’d be an Maple
If I were a tool, I’d be a Chain Saw
If I were a flower, I’d be a Black Rose
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be RAIN!
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Saxophone
If I were a color, I’d be Olive Green
If I were an emotion, I’d be Happy :)
If I were a fruit, I’d be a Mango
If I were a sound, I’d be a Bass
If I were an element, I’d be Fire
If I were a car, I’d be a Range Rover
If I were a food, I’d be Chicken
If I were a place, I’d be the Brooklyn Bride
If I were a material, I’d be Silk
If I were a taste, I’d be Vanilla
If I were a scent, I’d be Mountain Breeze
If I were an object, I’d be an Book
If I were a body part, I’d be The Heart
If I were a facial expression, I’d be a SMILE
If I were a song, I’d be Tupac - Pain
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be Jordan's
If I were a day of the week, I'd be Wednesday!
If I were a time of day, I’d be 3 pm
If I were a planet, I’d be The Moon!
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Tiger
If I were a direction, I’d be South
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Table
If I were a liquid, I’d be Mango Juice
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a Jade
If I were a tree, I’d be an Maple
If I were a tool, I’d be a Chain Saw
If I were a flower, I’d be a Black Rose
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be RAIN!
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Saxophone
If I were a color, I’d be Olive Green
If I were an emotion, I’d be Happy :)
If I were a fruit, I’d be a Mango
If I were a sound, I’d be a Bass
If I were an element, I’d be Fire
If I were a car, I’d be a Range Rover
If I were a food, I’d be Chicken
If I were a place, I’d be the Brooklyn Bride
If I were a material, I’d be Silk
If I were a taste, I’d be Vanilla
If I were a scent, I’d be Mountain Breeze
If I were an object, I’d be an Book
If I were a body part, I’d be The Heart
If I were a facial expression, I’d be a SMILE
If I were a song, I’d be Tupac - Pain
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be Jordan's
A Taste Of Me
Hello dear, can I have your full name?
Olivia Bassoo-Narine
Have you gotten close to anyone recently?
Yeah
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Always lol
Finish this sentence… The last person I kissed…
Is the man I'm going to marry.
Name something you cannot wait for?
Christmas & Eggnog!
Is the last person you hugged taller than you?
Yes sir.
Miss anyone?
Rahiem Antonio Emmit Reyes-Santiago
Who is your last text from?
Legacy!
What does your last text say?
"How are you feeling babygirl?"
Has a guy/girl sat on your bed before?
Yes sir.
Do you tend to fall for players?
Nope, I'm smarter than you all believe.
Could you handle living together with the last person who texted you?
Of corse!
Do you have feelings for anyone?Yes sir!Who is your best friend?
Legacy, Selena & Kadeem!
Do you have a thing with someone?
If in "thing" you mean relationship, then yes.
The last person you kissed, describe him or her?
Sweet Perfection!
When is the next time you will see any of your siblings?
August 13th, 2010
Do you like to hold hands?
Yes sir.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yeap!
Have you ever been called babe, baby or honey?
lol all the time man
If your boyfriend or girlfriend smoked pot, would you care?
If I didn't think it was in best interest, then yes.
Would you be able to name everyone you kissed so far in 2010?
Yeap, all you'd get is one name!
Do you want to be single?
Single is a label, I don't go by labels.
What are you currently listening to?
Miguel ft J.Cole - I Want You
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
Yes sir.
What were you doing at 12 am last night?
Blogging and talking with my other-half.
What’s in your wallet?
Cards & $50
What is bothering you right now?
People who lie.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
All my boys :)
Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
Everything.
Who’s bed were you last in?
My own.
Where is the last person you kissed at this moment?
Air port.
Do you hate the last guy, other than family, you had a conversation with?
Of corse not, Jah is my niggs!
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